Yes this is my 10post here.
i just have too much secrets that is un-say-able.
hms,
I know that i think too much , chg targets too much . expect tooo much .
bt when i really want t put my heart into it , nthg good wil turn out .
i m gng t post 2 Person tday .

One , i wish t tell him all the best. bt i cant . so i might as well do it heere. & let him find out himself.
Second, ZhangJiawei. ( I wil talk abt this first )
this is a guy toooo good for me , i felt inferior t him.
a feeeling i never got for any guy ,
i got a feeeling this guy will be a hard t catch . people tell me that

"just give up lah him"
"new urban male guys leh , all playboys leh you catch what"
" hms, if he really that good , you w him also will got trouble"

even now nt tgt , i feel th pressure.
i feeel that he hates talking t me .
bt obviously , how true it is , i donknow .
Cause thrs a incident we 3 days no contact no talk at all . at night when i online he talk t me miraciously ?? i donknow how t spell that word actually? --"
and alot of times when we long period of time never contact he will sudd yo me ?
does it happen if this guy don like talking t you or have no interest in you ?!
anw, he gave me his number also ! SO I DON BELIEVE HE GOT NO INTEREST IN ME ! fuggers. stop telling me give up him lah! --"

Anw , i donknow , 2 days since i talk t him ,
i seriously buay tahan liao.
i thought of him when i go shopping tday, heart keeep calling for him ,
i neeeed t talk t him seriously , tt pubor kia!
he told me whn imsg him why online didnt talk off9?
he reply me lik so fast , th most fast sms he send i shd say.
he reply , my internet no connection leh,
so i (maybe blur) says: huh thn you online?
he says : errr , got bt i online desktop msn cnt use leh.
i says: huh cnt use why online
apparently he couldnt understand wht i trying t ask.
so he replied: i online bt cnt talk leh. stupid msn spoil.
so i reply : haha ok nvm,
& yes th conv end here
i admit i m down ytd.
well . what can i do right? just hope he will miss me too ?& thn miracriously Again!
he will msg me somehow. sms spoil tabi , i don think hp will spoil right?
hais. lets hope&hope okay ?


Anw , mickey chenjiahao.
i sincerely you can gain happineess frm her.
i read your nick over and over again.
i can tell you are happy now.
anw, just t tell you
i don hate you now.
i quit those things , i quit missing you in th middle of the night
i quit trying t do stupid things bcos of you .
i have quit you. (:
be happy for me shall you ?
i promise i will surely be happier thn you .
a bet i make w you thn , & now (:

i rmb you say one day you never say those ridiculous thing t suan me , you will feel unease.
are you feeeling it now? i miss you
ZJW.
AhazyEye you have,
how many secrets do you have beneath all these.
. i miss you alot alot. i wana crap w you Now ! ):