Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebye !
i m so pissed off ,
well i did enjoy my day w my favourite girls dng mooncake!
bt thanks t my dk Budddddddddddy!
i spend 3/4 of the days thinking of tht Pubor ! WTF!
i cant believe i said this , who th fuck is he man!

I donknow . how m i suppose t face this shit now,
you come & you go .
no warning , its like i m a hotel.
suka suka, you came in and stay awhile , thn suka suka , you moved out,
me left w no choice , you come entertain you lor.
go leh? what about me?
hey fucker. i think abt you , i thought of everything,
i hate empty hopes. i waited 3/4 or more of the day for one msg,
why sia?! you just abit handsome only .
what th fuck am i thinking !
wlan eh . you nt online now. msg oso donwan reply? you gone for good ah?
cheeeeeeeeeeebye !

Now he online lah! bt wht ! fuck leh.
he never talk t me
cheeeeeeebye okay! --"
i donknow why i care alot ! i just care-ed .
i dno , i know i now also sian 1/2
why sia ? you tell me so much , now you didnt do anything also!
wht sia you! PUBOR ! i hate you lah! --"
EMPTY HOPES.
i hate you. puborrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr kia

I got my heart in my mouth !
its like my heart is thumping so so fast while see-ing you appearing online & didnt talk t me
i m betting w myself ,
will he talk t me?
wil he wil he ?
i donknw, second guy ! fate?
past two days sms & naming and such , brought me fun and laughters.
and tday i m hopelessly waiting for your msg , which is never-gng t come.
i feel , broken ,
as though you are every where now.

call me flirt if you want. bt i miss the two of them greatly
when will it become 1 ?
when will i become the one. when can i stop dreaming and settle down nicely?
i donknw? all those broken answers to my broken dreams
would you be the one t give me those links t my answers.
i have been waiting , thinking i m unwanted and such ,
would you be the one , holding my hand and breaking those curses of unwanted.
i always think why m i th one god neglected.
i m beautiful arent i ?
why are those eyes not on me? why m i stil left on the shelf while everyone starts t get attached t their other half.
fuck ! fuck this arrangement !
fuck you for nt talking t me !
fuck you lah!

i got thousand of questions for you pubor !
why not me ?! --"
okay, i m feeling super down now!
shall do things tt make me happier ! (:
like . msg-ing some one? haha
disturbing him
anw, shd i not or shd i hurt Ong shunxing? ahhhh
mother fucker! i donwan think of it anymore!
ciaos ):

Blogging time.
yes , i m nt here t say about mickey this time.
bt 3 guys in my life.
Now ?

First guy - Shunxing ,

• He is Handsome ,
• Dressing Style is bad
• Caring for everyone
• Does nt have a girlf for ages& suddenly wanna jio me .
• Sms me everyday .
• show me care & concern .
• I m nt sure if he is serious.

Second Guy - Jiawei .

• Handsome ,
• Good dressing style
• Sparkling eye.
• Talking like joking.
• Always suan me bout everything.
• i misses him sometimes.
• My friend jojoyee . - interested in him too
• I m nt sure if he is a good boyf
• He got 1 fucking std b4 only !? --"
• I meet him in new urban male , ohhhhhhhhh so handsome was all i can make out.
• Well , he`s abit bhb );
• sad t say uh =x

Third and the guy i love most. ( probably nt love , like should be what i can say )

Winson is his name

• Avg looking.
• My dream had him b4.
• Fate plays huge part for me meeting him .
• I like him . i cant say out anything ,
• He makes my day when he talk t me
• His words always melt my heart. just lil small talk will be enough.
• i like him . yes i do.

i guess i had the answer in my heart now. believe me. i will fight till th day i die. hais

Yo mickey secret blog again?
i just have the temptation to write again .
had my orhNi tday . i search th whole chinatown for it .
maybe its cravings. maybe its becos orhni is what he promised me , or maybe its because i think too much .
everytime i pass through , or go through all the memories places we once go to . or promise we would go to somedays.
i would think of you.
chinatown , vivo, bukit batok 1 head , my living room, hillgrove secondary, fajar market , Lrt stations , stjohn headquarter.

I am not sure if you still remember all these places we once go.

all those memories we once shared.

those lover-words we told each other.

i cant believe i m alone now.

what went wrong boy ?

what made yoo leave , i miss you .

miss holding on to you .

miss holding your hands and feel that you are always here

miss that .. whatever i do , thr will always be you here supporting me

miss that .. no matter how long the day is , at last in the dark, silent night i will be able t hear your comforting voice assuring me that everything will be alright.

i miss you , mickey chenjiahao

i know that everything is too late to return to the past .

i know that your heart isnt here anymore.

i know the girl you call "your girl" will nt be me anymore

i will try very hard to erase you from my memories.

my baby , my goodbye

my sincerest blessings to you(:

i cant say i would forget you this fast

bt , like i say , i would try .

i know your girl isnt me . iknowyouarehappy

your nick says so ? doesnt it.

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

my nick says these now.

im making sure i wont forgive & forget

i wont push all the blame to myself.

i know you have been cheating on me . zhupipi.

all those memories. i know . they are all fake.

man-made . i know they are.

natural feelings. who would give me ?

this blog. will be forever here.

i wont close it down nor would i let anyone close it.

my mickey , he will be in my heart somewhr.

the mickey , i would allow him to go anywhere he want. as long he dont bothers about my life.

zaijian.

我想我还是不够成熟

还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

我想我还是不够成熟

还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念

你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要事过境迁的以后才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一刻 我们有缘在见

你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手