Thursday, October 30, 2008

goodbye just two words


Like a cat seriously.

i feelt like crying. damn it .

Anw. i save his picture i donknw why lah.
i say i m gng to forget him
But thn , i say one set i do another
there , in Public ( Friends&Family) i m trying lik fuck to forget him yet in private i m here blogging and saving his picture.
i cant find the picture that i like most * the one he is pointing middle finger while webcamming ):
i like that the most ! *Crys.

Well. Knew something from benedict dk after so long,
Well. am i suppose to be happy and jump ard knowing or shd i be sad?
Hms i shd be happy that i once live in his heart shdnt i ?
But well. thats the whole fk-ing point .
He like me before , In all the while i am feeling damn inferior to him .
he like me .
argr.rrr. i donknow what made him gave up But according to what ben said
: He like you that time , maybe miscommunication made him ** Assume** That you dont like him Hence he GAVE UP !!
PS: Like hey when did i ever said or hint that i dont like you uh ZHANGJIAWEI ! can you don assume anot ah!!
well heading back to the point .
He like another girl now. Joyce shd be.
he is so into her.
well , his personal msg is getting sadder and sadder day by day.
Hurts me .
well. i m not sure can i let go of him ? but what shd i do ?
i m like a scaredycat. i cant go talk to him alrd .
i m so scared that he wont reply me again. I AM SO BLOODY SCARED LAH!
only way is to find out him from benedict , Only way is to cry lik fuck , Only way is to forget him
i knw its all going to be a hard process , but what more can i do ?
well. nd after this end . i promise & i swear i will never love a person b4 i m certain he like me.
i swear uh.

Its truely amazing how fate can twine & play w two person at its finger.
Byebye zjw.
its a fact that i love you once & love you now.
But maybe its not deep enough for you to find out.
or you are not observant enough.
well. only word left to say is - BE HAPPY ALWAYS



Sunday, October 19, 2008

I really cnt understand WTF i did wrong?
why sudd things turn out lik that ?
He suddenly , Just suddenly rip me off my chance of befriending him.
suddenly his attitude towards me chg 360 degrees.
Why ? What did i do wrong ? What did i do to him to deserve this?
he said he would try to treat me btr. bt things turn out opp.
why ?
i said in my previous post i wanna leave bt i cant .
缘份这件事有够奇怪
我不期待却偏要来

Why come alrd thn don make it hpn ? why sty in this kind of fuck friendship that i cant stand?
i want you to be mine .
wanted you to be thr when i fall to catch me & it all
its alrd .. 6th day i m nt talking to you .
will you miss me ? guess not.
thr are so many pretties out thr right ?

hais.
i miss you ZJW .
Fate brought us to be this close why not another step more?
did "she" think i m unsuitable for you.
i donwanna be alone =(

Monday, October 13, 2008

I talked to him ,
yes . Noted that i talked to him tday first.
short replys he gave. made me feeeeel he dont reaally wanna talk t me.
what should i do ?
should i wallow in despair . DAAMN FUGG feeling now. i don like that .

Thr is a distance somewhr in betweeen us.
and it so happen after we didnt talk for 2 days.
maybe . fate doesnt bring us tgt.
maybe , fate also thinks that i m more inferior compare to you .
maybe , maybe , maybe. maybe i think tooo much , &
that cause me sadnesss.
yes. you deserve better
i m sorry , i dont deserve such a good guy lik you .
i will try . from tday not to contact you anymore.
i will just imagine .. New urban don exist anymore.
i m sorrry if i did cause you trouble . i m sorry if i intrude your peaceful life.
i m leaving now.
& i will shed no tears for there is no sadness that i m bringing .
i will smile .& Face you somedays. if thr is any possiblity .

Sorry , i cant be your friend .