Heart fails me.

Heys. i m here again .
on a . random basis lik you can say.
i m talking to him. yes i auto-roam again.
i mean like i told god, i just want to chat w him before i m off to genting. thats all.
since i caught him online. then fine. chat abit since god alr grant me my chance.
nevermind about me falling w him, or ah winx say i dont attract him or anything.
so what? i m only chatting w him.
okay. so thats what i think? but why does my heart hurts now?
Like i m betraying my own will.
okay . fuck evrything. i m off to genting tmr. so just enjoy this conv . and if theres any chance then grab it. if none. then fuck it off.
its just another guy i fails to get only . Happens always.
i will be better in no time . i guess. (:

yes, i m boring , i m stupid. unkind etc. fuck it all off okay!
zjw got himself a nice girl. mickey got yanting . BLOODY FUCK.
they fails me yet they have better then me.
what a bloody fucking unfair world! cb! --"
i m going club. i m gng rebel. fuck off la. piorities my foot.

Heart fails me.

HE IS NOT ONLINE YET =(
AND IS BLOODY 12:23 . --"



Miracles please happen again. before i left fr genting
please let me talk t Tyfin. i beg you.
don let what ahwinx say turn true =(

PS : I LOVE YOU

oh god , genting is making my head bigger

Goodness. sisters are making my head veryvery big lah! jiu shi aneh lah!

jialat la! bu hao plan she me overseas liao. money matters la, & ahbee thy all coming also,

make till i say no also paiseh.

Anw , tday he is not online. Hao la

HE = T .MAN

Aiya. so sian. everytime online cant see him i will from =) become =(
so like you guess. tday my mood is . freaking =(

anw. i wonder. if i ever saw him in skl . what should i do ?

say HELLO TYFIN. or .. ehhhh. ehhh heheh. ni hao?

or . wave hands* or WEI HELLO (:

then then? finish hello say what ?

oh god ? shit super ps , in msn so sou* also not seems to be such a good thing ,

okay but ... tday topic is !! >>

KNOWING SOMEONE IS A ULTERIOR MOTIVE.

subtitle - Taking msn , phone number equates to ulterior motive.

sub sub title - Taking msn phone number means you`re interested in him . as in like him (:

Okay lets go in more details. i should say , okay if a girl or boy or in simple words.

A Human , when he/she saw a "hot" human being.

Automatically he/she will pay more attention to that human being and lk oh well (: smile to them or talk to them . in a more extreme case when that hot is Burnt , like bloody hot , or maybe feel some affinity. people wants to know "hot" humans , affinity , looks plays part ,

okay back to hot topic.

so if that guy/girls interested in knowing, will tk msn , phone numbers from that person. or that person friend.

and auto talk t him/her . okays. then this happen,

sometimes some people will tend to think . woah. this one tk from me one , NOT BAD AH.

or sometimes some people tend to think

wlao sibey ugly ah. still dare tk frm me. lj one la. wan chance , next life okay..

okays thats not the main point MAIN ONE is. if that person tk your msn or number.

you believe no motive one? sorry then you are too naive if you just think its just another friend,

out of 10 only 4 tk for fun. others all is ... you know. got xing qu de lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

OKAY MAIN POINT LAI LIAO!

------------------------------------------------------ ta ta

i don know wan tk tyfin phone number not.

cos he havent ask from me what?!

BUT HE TALK LIKE MACHIAM GOT INTEREST LEH!

eh,2 times liao hor. he auto talk t me. eh got sweet sweet sumore.

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. taoyan, face ang ang liao =x

but jw na ge shuai but stupid guy oso he ownself give de lehs. =x

HOW AHHHHHHHHHH?

sibey ... mao dun =x

but if dont tk thn only can online chat.

iff like tday never online thn the whole day gone liao.

but got number then can chat even not online lehhhhhhhhhhhhhh ): how?

I wish 24 hours would be shorter.
i wish everyone was less busy. so i can hv more companions.
Ramblings on & on.
Never did i know even a free life would be so upset .
i felt life empty , i felt my goal gng far from me.
i don feeel loved. i don feel much. everyday is the same old routine for me.
Sleep ,eat , watch tv /play ds/ go out / make up / Dinner / etc. Believe it , tday is my first time online in this few wks.
no i m not busy , i m just using all these to keep myself busy.
to keep myself from being online.
i know online i will talk t him automatically
i just want to test my patience , his . or ours? i wanna let him think i m not here anymore.
i want him to miss me.
sadly. he doesnt .
he dont leave offline message for me.
he dont leave msg in facebook for me.
maybe to him , it is just plain wu liao. for me its sweet. its signifigant.
okay . why do i say till like he like me like that. simple ? cos i want it to be that way.
but its hard.
i m so bored. i want to fly.
i want to accomplish great things.

Anw i think yqwm is a very nice spore show.
it talks about competition . love , superficial beauty and inner beauty .
godness. its just my show.
cried alot cos some just shows out how i m feeling.
ahhhh . its a nice show definetely.
and it makes you realise how much some people means to you.
(:

okay he is talking to me.
should i ask for handphone number?
godness. ciaos then (:

How many have really realise what we are living for.
what is our goal or aim in life?
If we did something wrong , we are punish . from young babies to adult .
all these have been done to educate us. to make us a better person.
isnt it right?
how many could hv known that all these only make us do more wrong. to othes to ourself.
From olden days to now.
people starts to question themselves.
The love education or the cane education.
If tday it happens that you are the parents , what will you choose?
Can life really be rewrite , clean to a state that no marks have been there before.
if yes , can i go back to my young age and i will make everything different from there.
Even my scars.



I miss T . but we are nt talking . cos i hvnt been online these few nights
had a nice dream of us last night . but well it is not gng t happen.
nothing is real in tt dream even T. face.
fate plays a huge part . but individual ?
Nothing comes out good even i try . Mickey case is , Jiawei case is .
i have lost hope in trying . what good is trying if nothing comes out of it .
maybe. i should stop finding , and let him try to find me .
So what should i do ?
who is my mr right? or like chunhow says , i will never be able to find him.
single. attached , what is best for me?
so many guys i met. but not one is serious. not one even ask me to trust him and be w him
WHY DO I NEED SO MANY. i only need one. to love , care and trust me .
who will be the one?
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My another masterpiece.

JIALAT LA! BOONJIALE GOT ANOTHER ONE LA. LAI LA. BEAT WO LA!(:

tyfin says:?
?haha actually i gtg?
?going slp soon?
?but i realise chating with is such a fun thing
Jiale says:
?hahaha
tyfin says:
?so i decide to stay long
?compliment*
Jiale says: says:
?sure not?
?no
?this is a nice one! lol
tyfin says:?hahah ok la
?seriously i going slp soon
?i need wake up early

Jiale says:
okay nice one .
another compliment!!
ahaha
?i realise i m such a nice person(:
tyfin says:
?ok i realise that also
?point noted
?hahah

tyfin says:
?alamak
?so early slp
?lousy ar
Jiale says. Miracles. says:
?hahaha., you go yr rebel right?
tyfin says:?yea it is just like accompany my frens go
?haha
iale says: Miracles. says:
?hahahha, oh! lols?okays! (:




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Please bloody ignore the questionmark! it is made by the damn msn msger!!2!@!@$.
nevertheless tday conversation is bloody nice. but i don understand. why he still hvnt get my hp num .
oh damn ~
i m flying , running wild. walking towards him ,
gosh, every conv w him just make me gng more twrds him
any kind soul will kindly bloody interprete abv conv to me.
let me know it is safe to fall on him
.. hahahhaha.
YA BIAN NI ((:

i realise i like guys that are cute &humourous
!just lik you Mr . T (:
i realise you are just my type!
why didnt i find you earlier then him? maybe i wont get hurt.
But you go clubbing . what? should i trust .
Even you go clubbing.
in my memory , secondary skl memory . old memory , you are so cute & naive
just like a small lil boy that needs people love.
you std w this sports girl that is not pretty.
you dont see looks @ all dont you.
prove me right ya?
i need to know more about you huh , what should i do next?
what if you treat every girls same way.
even my sis pretty friend wan to know you,
kay i more pretty thn her =x lols
but . i know you go clubbing always lots of girls around you ,
shit la!
Another JW?
maybe i m not even in love w you. oh fuck! what am i talking =x sorry !
fuck la! i miss you ! damn! you asshole. another asshole again --"
sorry mrT . couldnt help it . hope you don sneeze& have a swweet dream!

Hope tmr you would talk t me again!
i m not nice in being auto.
though i m always being auto w you):
hahaahaha, damn you! you also know one lor! .. hahahaha
miss you chng tye- fin

I was damn happy tday!
hehehehehe! well. maybe only for tday but it was rather enough.
know what!
he is back from what i call long trip to hongkong. --"
goshness. &hes back! what more he started talking to me tday!
wooo , @ long last. &well we really had long conv tday. no not as long as 1-2 hour. but its long considering our history of chat.
but what mde me really happy is . he talk to me FIRST! =D
wahlao. f*king happy really.
even for once , yes i m contented.
((: