Tears just keep rolling uncontrolltably down my cheeks,
thinking over and over again,
whether the decision i made is right?
well, i still havent made it final , promise ben&sisters tday will be the day i decide wht route to tk .
Give up zhangjiawei, or . Give it my all.
不到最后 , 我不会放弃 .
which one shoould i choose ? is my love deeep for him to endure all these 暗恋的痛苦.
or is my love easily broken , like now this situtation i would choose to give up
hms, neither of these choices is good , bt i stil have to make one and stick to it ,

Well. Holding on although it is painful bcos i donknow how much i can endure
i donknow when i would suddenly feel too pain to carry on,
i donknow how much the girl love you, how much you love the girl.
i donknow how long i can hold on.
i donknw even i hold on , will you be touched.
Benedict told me , i would have a higher chance . is he sure?
how sure cn he be?
have you told him smth?
bt he said no. you didnt mention to anyone , nt even ben abt me,
the dance ? is it fake? You thought i m just one party girl.
i m so soorrry boy. that is so wrong,
i m a traditional girl. i hold on tight to my stand . i m nt one that let ppl hold my hand easily or believe any fuck talk without action ,

what m i seriously ?
what if i just give up now?
just cut off all connection to you.
i dont believe you do not have any interest in me ?
i seriously dont think now i cant pei shang you?!! what fuck!? why cant i ?
boy i seriously tell you, i m not a plain jane anymore.
i m presentable . i m not only being able to satisfy a few glance of others.
I m now able to let people fall , just fall w me ,
I M A CONFIDENT GIRL. i wont let you nor anyone spoil what i have now of myself.
seriously , i still wonder why you lie to me?
you know that one is me thn you come over de. why still gey siao , are you jiale?
hai. i donknow you lah. wtf ==
i really donkw. to9 i will blog my answer thn. ciaos(: