I m really tired of humans life & Behaviour.
Sickening was all i can spell out.
One moment they can be all over you , dying to know you . Another fucking moment they would turn their back against yours.
Backstabbing. hyprocrites & Liars ,
i really dont understand why do they even exist.

Seriously , how many of us have real close friends that we might really label as close.
seldom have i labelled really close friend.
seldom i have those real feelings twds a friend .
yes , might be i m a hyprocrite too. i don deny.
i know someone not cause i truly wna know her . Maybe for some good uses.
ITS REALLY DISTURBING .
i really donknow why i would feel this way , why i would act this way.
totally disgusted.

Humans heart are very sneaky ,
sometimes one might be friendly and good to you , giving you all the chances in the world but another time when you see them , thy would change 180 degrees. denying of all the chance you have, yes , why i would say this is bcos of ZhangJiawei nick .
Parasites? is he saying me . i m really curious.
However ignorance is bliss right.
Cause if i find out he is saying me , i would be sad for sure. so why not just i dont cross his path he dont cross mine.
However easy i m saying it here. Its hard to forget about him.
Though we have nothing bt things happen. and this sort of things is not like you wna forget , one day you would.
i really hate it . hate him . but what can i do,
is all my one sided feelings.
who can i blame

Friends have been really a drag to me .
i start to dread the thought of going to skl.
mainly cause i m nothing to my clique. maybe i shouldnt feel this way .
but i really dont think they are treating me as though i m their clique.
we are not acting like how a clique should be.
i feel like getting out. i know they will be more thn happy.
i really hate the feeling of you treating others as friend or good friends but they dont feel the same.
wtf. It is really hurting.
i m crying. i m bleeding . but who can i talk to .
who can i REALLY depends on.

I m single for almost 2 yrs.
ys though i m never really alone .
i have suitors all the way . is only me that donwanna get attached. don wna commit to anyone
is my fault . however. could i commit to someone i don like.
if is you , would you do it , just for the sake of being attached ?
but on some "rainy days" i really wish i can just lean in close to someone for a hug or for a heart t heart talk.
On some days i really hope i can kiss someone i really love , passionately .
And on happy days i really hope someone would be there sharing the joys with me .
some sickly days i hope someone would be there telling me to takecare or bring me to the doc. maybe even just hug me and comfort me
some days i hope someone would rung me up just for saying ' i love you & have a nice day"
some days i reaaally hope someone would give me flowers
and sometimes i really pin and hope for a couple fight. silly couples fight.
i miss . the times i m attached to someone.
i miss the times. people , guys love me for who i m
i miss the days he said i m his all.

But i have none for two plus yrs now.
i m lonely . i m fucking lonely and sad.
i have no suitors now.
i have people saying i m ugly now.
oh fuck! xxxxk . i really dread this life now.
i really hate myself. hate people .
hate crowds , hate people saying i m not pretty enough .
fxxkyou all man!
I REALLY HATE THIS PART OF MY LIFE.
whatever ..