Just a few day before tday , i was as happy as a singing lark.
everything seem to go on fine without jiawei.
I was still being able t catch a few glance , fish a few compliments for others.
Until ytd. my life was . in a big mess. Huge big fucking mess.
i donknow what happen. i felt like it change me.
ytd meeting w benedict.
i suddenly felt i lost my confident , its gradually seeping away.
i felt that i m suddenly avoiding crowds of people.
i felt that i m so ugly even w makeups.
i find i cant compete w anyone .
i see guys that used to like me falling w other girls
i see other girls i used to think disgusting w boyfriends.
Maybe . it was because of benedict comment about my makeup ytd.
Maybe it was because i lost.

Whats the real reason ? i donknow.
i cant stop comparing.
i really hope i m prettier. i wna catch people attention
i donwanna be plain jane. or people see my friend but not me !
HELLO. I M THEN THE ATTENTION SEEKER!
if you have it , flaunt it (;

Anw. i lose him to a pretty girl.
yes i think its pretty okay.
since yes even **i** think shes not bad (:
i sincerely hope that i will move on .
(: