Cant speak anymore.
well. been days, i hvnt had any chance of talking to him .
saw him in school tday ,
first in th lift lobby of block34. and then @ block 50.
he was in the car.
(i suspect he saw me alrd.)
man i feel like blogging out all my fucking feelings now.
i felt so fcuked up right now.
Nobody is here for me.. & what make it worst , yongquan told me his feelings.
i dontwant t know , in enough of shit alrd.
acted like i donknow. well in full. i m not interested in him anymore, & i dont want him to waste time on me , and i dont wanna bluff myself believing i would re-accept him again.
Back to tyfin topics. i donknow , bt i think he saw me ,cause he peek his head out of window and look . however. fucking girls walk alrd. so car went by.
and in a spur moment , i then realise , he was in the car.
so much for like hundreds of seconds standing there looking blurly @ the car to look out for handsomes.
In the end , found no handsome but him staring blankly out , (Might be looking fr me ? )
Okay whatever . its no main point,
main point is , i acted all so stupid, i Shouted like. EH JIALING tyfin leh!
EWT girls and guys in front are looking as me though i saw show lo .
Thy are glancing up and down & laughing at me as a joke i suppose.
... jialing, being a good frien just say , its only tyfin, why you shout lik you see your boyfriend.
... i m speechless.

Kinda after that stoned in briefting talk,
wondering much about me and him ,
wondering does his nick hv any meaning to any other girls.
i m tired .
shall g, bye .
its a lonely lonely day . and i dont suppose thrs any shoulders fr me to lean on .
whatever,