I dreamt of Him Tuesday night,
He is back by my side , i can hug him tight , i can slap his big big cute stomach ,
i can play funny jokes on him , i can sit by his side and talk everything under the sun w him
Its a nice dream , i swear if i got a choice i wouldnt want to get up .
i would love t see his face even till forever.
in tt dream i could.
i miss him , miss all the past , beautiful , ridiculous thing we did tgt ,
yes it all re-appear in tht dream again . i miss you .
do you remember all the silly things we do .
bets we made about chou gong jiang gui .
tattoo ,and such
you chg alot after we break , i always wonder am i th reason for your change?
did you suffer ? did you ever miss me .
i miss you alot . i cried and cried everyday rmb-ering all the promises you gave me.
the yelllow , nov 13 bear you gave me on our first meeting
everything just triggers the past of you and me .
i miss you . i do , i miss everything ,

21st december , you are gone , you told me i m your burden
you want to let me go and find my own happiness ,
i donknow what i have done. i donknow what you know
noel ? mark? or who? i donknow what i have done wrong.
people told me you wont turn back anymore when we fought for the first time
i did nt believe even i have recieve that Zhu pipi msg
i trusted you with all my heart. & you betrayed my trust .
it was a girl , it was not me, you bluff-ed me that you wanted t slp, & accidentally that msg was sent t me.
was it fate that wanted me t know?
even though i refuse to let go .
i donknow how t live without you , i have become so dependent on you in tt one month one week relationship .
you brought me to places , you took care of my injuries , blow my hair , sleep w me , cook for me
i really do not know . whr has gone wrong ,
the few days after we had break is torturous for me.
i do not know what t do except t sit down and cry for you . for our past.
i suddenly lost my mind , i suddenly lost all my skills & brains and everything
i forget what i did t memerise guys . i forget hw did you ever like me ,
i forget everthing. i even forget how t fucking tk a bowl of rice.
i could only open up your friendster and talk t the computer like i m talking t you.
People started to ask me Whr is mickey ,
I DONKNOW WHAT TO REPLY. what should i reply?
i donknow or should i say i donwant to reply , because it brings back everything i tried so hard to forget ,
because i suddenly can see , i really have no control over what time or whr you gone to .
i don want this , i want t be in control of your life like last time.
bt i know somewhr is not possible anymore.
suddenly i find it even harder to remember your face , i find it hard to believe all your words , all that you told me .
up till now , everything is fading one by one ,
those shilloutes that will sit w me lik you are here hugging me tight is lost .
those smells that you once left behind in my house is gone now,
Now even those memories have gone blury .
one day i believe i will wake up from this nice Nightmare,
i will forget you someday and accept a new relationship
someone will took over you like you took over glenn`s

Now everytime i open up another girl blog , i would see your face
no , not beside mine of cos . i would seeee your face w her in a picture .
i feeel sour inside ,
i m jealous of her
everything she`s got to replace me .
why did you chooose her and nt me
i chg , i chg alot , i m better thn her.
why did you not chooose me